Don't worry, I let you go. Long before you left me.

Today was great :) but I suppose I should start with last night, since that's the proper order of these things.
I went hot tubbing (again.. I know... having a friend with a hot tub is an ultimate score though) with Jordan and Desi and Colton :) It was way fun :) we're kinda creepy stalkers... This chick called Jordan and was like 'is this Jordan?' So he was just like yes... then she hung up :| of course we called her back immediately to try to discover what the deal is, but all she said was that her friend wanted to know. So we did some google searches and come facebook checks. And surprisingly we caught the whore :) We are THAT good at being creepy ;) but so then we were all about to get in the hot tub and Desi was just like 'Do you like Colton?' So I did an Idk smile shrug. And then she was just telling me that he really likes me (:) :) :) :) :) :)) and that he thinks I'm really pretty :) :) :) :) It made me smile kinda pretty big because it feels nice to be admired and appreciated ;) but he's also a super shy kid and it's adorable because he doesn't do anything about it, but you can tell he wants to :) I think it is SO cute how shy he is :) We had to baby sit Jordans niece a little too and me and Desi taught him how to change her diaper :) she was the cutest little baby :) and I hate babies :) but so then on our way home, I saw IT. The very same spider that we had discovered when we went to fiveguys. IT'S A REOCCURRING SPIDER!!! And it was right next to ME! So Desi, being the brave one, handed me her shoe. And I took a good old whack at it. But it was one of those moments where it's like 'Omgomgomg did I get it??? Where did it go??? What happened to it???' And Colton is one of those guys that's like '(ha she's afraid)... OMG IT'S ON YOU! IT'S ON YOUR FACE!!!! OMG!' Needless to say, there was a lot of screaming, screeching, and wailing that happened. And once I was intelligent enough to realize that he was being a typical guy, there was a lot of hitting and slapping that happened (in a very flirtatious way of course!) It was ridiculous :) But so then we got to Coltons house and Desi leaves to go get milk (can't you just tell your family to get it from your goats???), but Jordan is like I'm gonna go with Desi. Of course Jordan did this as a bro trying to be a wingman. But Colton's super shy :) and it was cute :) then home and le sleepy time :)
Zakary came over today as planned :) but I was a very odd sleeper last night and ended up hella sleeping in. So when the doorbell rang I was a little taken aback. (Unprepared can also be used here) So I open the door. Let him in. And run away. 'Hold on! Let me go put on a bra!' ...That's definitely a downside to sleeping in bikini tops... but so then I was like ooober hungry so I was like mcdonalds now. It took convincing for sure, but I got my mcdonalds :) I was wayy bummed that I missed the breakfast menu, but milkshakes and fries also hit the spot ;) Except that Zak drank more of my milkshake than he did his rootbeer! Him: 'There, just finished ten chicken nuggets' Me: 'Nine.' 'You had one?!' 'I TOLD you I did... you watched me eat it!' :)) but then it was quite odd. I just started tearing up. And as soon as he said I looked like I was about to cry. It happened. FLOODS! Not quite, but it's a good visual ;) I don't know what brought it on, but I just started to cry. And him, being a completely amazing friend, held me and told me to tell him. I didn't want to tell him though because it made me seem like a DICK, but he's one of my bestfriends. So I told him. I just missed Eric. I don't want him, and I know he isn't right, but for some reason I just MISSED him. And it was hella random. It probably had to do with my stupid dream last night, but it was retardeee. But Zak is such a good guy, wiping my tears and mascara and telling me he understands. I still felt like a douche though. No guy wants a girl in their arms to start crying about an ex. I'm a demon. Once I calmed down (fun fact: this tear fest only lasted like five minutes I'm proud to say) Zak continued to rub my back and then told my that my 'girl side was showing' :| WHATEVER alright :)) Yes, I'm basically a dude when it comes to vagina jokes and bitch in the kitchen jokes, and actually a lot of other things, BUT MY HEART IS THE HEART OF A GIRL!!! :| woof... anyways, so then we decided to go longboarding, which lasted a very short time because of stupid utah weather! But we decided that we're going to go canoeing :) Someday :) we're gonna do a lot of epic stuff 'someday' :) I like that feeling :) OHHH and we FINALLY took a super chill picture in those sunglasses :) UNFORTUNATELY it's on his camera, so I'll have to bully him until he posts it on facebook! I'm good at being a bully to him though ;)
Then tanning :) upped my time. But after I went, I COULD NOT GET WARM... It was a TRAGEDY. So I took a bath, that lasted aprox. two hours. And my mother kept me company. We talked about pretty much everything. I love when we do that :) you can tell she finds great joy in seeing me go out with a lot of guys instead of just one :)
Thinkin Titanic tonight :) either that or le sleepy time :) I just want a night in tonight :)
Last night wasn't a happy night with all my bad dreams, but today definitely was :)
xxxxxx