These insecurities could eat me alive.

I woke up crying, wishing for my sister. Wishing that Taya would be there to wipe my tears and make things clear. I woke up crying because I don't know what love is. What true friendship is. Because I don't know what to do about life anymore. I wish she was here. Because she was the best at making me smile instead of cry. She knew exactly what threats to say to make me feel better, even though I knew she wouldn't ever do anything. Taya gave me the strength to believe and the strength to carry on. She let me lean on her shoulder instead of letting me fall. She protected my heart more than I did and loved me more than I could ever think possible. I wish I would have gone to college out of state just so I could leave everyone behind. Especially so I could leave my past behind. I don't want to do this anymore, this whole high school drama shit. Every time part of it ends, a different part comes up. I talked to Robin last night. I don't hate her. I'm not bitter towards her anymore. I'm not angry. And I'm just glad to have that over with. But then of course more has to come. Actually, I've got a perfect solution. How about everyone from my past, just doesn't exist anymore. At. All. I'm just going to make an entire new set of friends. It's like getting over my childhood and entering adulthood. I always say that I wish I had friends like Marshall and Lily and Barney and Robin and Ted. Now is the time to make them. It's time to burn my childhood and pave my way into adulthood. Gone are the days of climbing trees and burning ants. Here's to eight hour days at work and still finding time for classes.
ok. clean slate.
Childhood memories > Childhood Friends