So kiss me all night, don't ever let me go.

Ok, I'm gonna blog real quick and fast that way I don't forget anything! Because I feel like after graduation I would be too overwhelmed to remember all these fantastic things. First of all. Him. Senior year is over. And it makes me sad because of him. Him and only him. And after today he isn't drinkingdruggingorhavingsex. So my chance is gone for good. Which bums me out, but only a little bit. He wanted me to be his last time. I think that is adorable for some reason. It makes me feel special. And I know it's silly, but I think he really liked me and has for a while now. Idk, I want to say more, but I'm too much of a loser to do that. So I'll write it in my personal journal or something. Fuck it. When he said that I realized how much feeling I really had that I was too afraid to show. It taught me a lot, it taught me to love with my whole heart again even though it's going to be scary. Maybe one day I'll have another chance. Probably not, but it feels nice to think maybe. Goodbye senior year, thanks for all these lessons I've learned.
Graduation practice was ridiculous. It's too early in the morning and I was wiped. Pure exhausted. But Mitchell's hair. Oh. My. God. BLONDE. We fixed it though :) it's back to looking Mitchell-y again :) I'm so excited to be able to walk and to have this final goodbye. I already know I'm probably gonna cry. It still hasn't hit me yet, but I know when they call Mitchell's name, that's when it's going to be real. Because then I'll be next. And then it IS real. I know I'm gonna cry. Not because I'm going to miss people, but because this huge part of my life is finally over. I can't believe it yet. I'm ready to start over again though. I know life has more lessons to make me learn. And I want to be altered by life.
Oh. p.s I GOT THE VICTORIA'S SECRET JOB!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) OhmyGOD! I can't wait!!!! :) :) :) It's going to be such a good summer!!! It's going to be such a good life!!! :) :) :)
Looking through this post, I realized something. I like Nate so much more than I should. So so much more.
Today is the day <3