Autumns yours and mine tonight

Today has had too many emotions so it makes my head hurt.

But I'm ok now :) because this kid just showed up on my doorstep and helped my night be better.

Zak has saved my life a few times here and there to be honest. And I'm really lucky to have him as a friend.

I want to write deep words that will impress you, but nothing is coming to me. I'm just blank. But a good kind of blank. Because for the first time in a long time depressing thoughts aren't clouding my mind. And that's a peaceful thing.

Next year, when I'm on seminary council, I'm not going to change and become like the people we make fun of. I'm going to stay like myself. Alot of people told me that it will be good for me, so I really hope that it will be. But Im going to stay real. I'm not going to pretend that I'm perfect, because I know that I'm far from it. And I'm not going to let there be a seminary Adri and a school Adri. There's just going to be me. And I'll be the same everywhere. I promise. And next year will be way amazing :) But you have to join the bowling team with me ;)

I'm already thinking about next years prom dress :) I want to look like a dark mermaid :)

I want to be j.

Correction: I am j.

I just found a new power in myself that I haven't felt in a really long time. This is going to turn into a new confidence. Not just in my appearance which is the only way that people usually think about confidence, but in my actions and in my decisions. I'm going to learn to trust myself. Because things are starting to get good again. I can feel it. I can feel in my bones that this is the start of something special and new and good. I'm going to be ok. Everything is going to be ok. I just needed a friend to show me that. Thank you. I owe you so much so stop saying sorry.