It's time to get out of the desert and into the sun. Even if it's alone.

My loves :)

Hey Cali, you have a hawt son... but only without the afro ;) I love you Cali :) :)

Danielle is just over thinking her hair. It was so much more beautiful before. And she's just wrecked it to pieces. Blue and black? With straight across bangs?! Woof...  

Megan!!! Open your present right now! Hurry up so we can open your secret santa gift!!! 'We?' "I wonder who it's from.. look around the room and see who's watching us!' Megan the tag says lesley...

Jessica do Megan's makeup!!! Do it!!! I swear I was more excited than Megan was..

We rolled a perm today. And I don't know if Lundon will be able to move on to barbering with us. She's missed so much and really isn't up to all of our knowledge. I really hope she makes it though..

Preston: 'I have four girlfriends.'

Me: 'oh who?'

'Shaylee, Krista, Kendra, aannnddd... you!' Apparently I'm going out with a four almost five year old..

'That's what she said!!!' Atticus! Where did you hear that?! Later he danced on a table and all his mom said is 'Are we serious right now?'

Color the square on your snowman now! Seth looks at us for a second. Takes the green crayon. And massacres the whole snowman. 

Seth has a huge man crush on Mitchell. A HUGE man crush... but then again I am the one with the four year old boyfriend..

Where is hott english kid :( I've curled my hair alllll week and he hasn't even seen it :/

Abby took our spot at lunch. What a child. That's pretty elementary. She needs to accept the fact that Tina is ours now. When I look at her I still think about her secret and I get all smug inside.

Part of me feels like I'm gone. I used to always smile. Now I find it easier and easier to just not. I hate school. I hate what everyone says about me. I hate that I'm closest to girls from other schools. I hate I'm always lonely. I hate highschool.

 'Don't ever go to high school, Dorota. The girls are spoilt, stupid, and ungrateful' -Blair Waldorf. 

What's sad is how much I agree with that. But I pretty much want to change it to mormons are spoilt, stupid, and ungrateful. Why do only old people tell me that my eyes sparkle and that I have an amazing spirit? Why doesn't anyone see that except for my bishop, Dixie, Melba, Lady, and my seminary teachers. Why only them? I don't think I'll change the world the way that I wanted to. I feel so resigned right now. So just done with even trying. I want to famous just so I can stand up and give a speech about what bitches and assholes everyone in highschool was. And yeah, I'll use their real names. I'll let the world know about what a dick the whole eyre family is. And how all I needed was for someone to reach out and they just pushed me farther away. I'll let the world know everything. Even how I was always the ugly girl that people made fun of. Then a couple years later all those guys that made fun of me wanted my number. And I'll tell them how fucking good it felt to say no. 

I need to be successful because I've gone through hell to get there.

Young love murdered. That is what this must be.