Destiny is calling me.

Everyone talks about how the snow makes them feel all icky inside, but it doesn't to me. Not this kind, not right now. I always find myself inspired on a rainy day or when the snow is gently falling (not the kind that dumps down, heavens no, not that kind of snow :| ) So a day like today leads me to reflecting. About everything that has happened this year and how blessed I am. January seems like forever ago, but I remember I started wearing extensions to school and that's when people started to think that I was pretty. Boys noticed me and girls started to get jealous. This was the first time someone other than my mom and Terance had referred to me as beautiful. In February I started my blog, finally finding a release other than Triton's shoulder. In March me and Mitchell started to get close again, Kim and Xyra were always by my side, I got asked to my first prom, and I turned 17. April was a blur, I remember feeling heartbroken most of the time and lonely the other part. This is when Triton, Mitchell, And Taya helped to rescue me. This is also when I went to a soccer game and met Eric. May was a huge time for my spiritual growth, Eric and Mitchell taught me a lot about prayer and what it's like to have a real relationship with God. June was a time that I spent reflecting over my friends because most of them were leaving to college to start their new life without me. I wondered who I would be and who they would become. It was often on my mind if I would be forgotten or if they would always remember me. July. Ohh July, this is when Me and Zak got close again, but it's also when me and Eric didn't. It was my time in california where all I wanted to do was get a deep tan and go to the beach. August was when it really felt like summer, boys showed interest in me, I went shopping a lot, ben was home, it just felt like summer. September was a month of heartbreak, not for me, but for my best friend, which in translation means my heart was also breaking. September was a month of tears, it's when Mike started fainting and we found out about the cancer. It's also when Dylann first started hating me, but it's also when I found out how many people I have on my side. Hot english kid also enters into the scene at this point. October was a month of drama for me and Mitchell, but it was also when I realized how much he meant to me. This is when I became Barbie with the perfect Ken :) Me and hot english kid had began texting by now and I was starting to learn how much my cosmetology girls mean to me. Eric was by my side through every tear and every fit that I had. The beginning of October is when I realized how inadequate I am to the seminary kids. November. Ben. Ben. Ben. Ben being broken, Ben whining about being broken, Ben starting to heal, Ben getting a girlfriend, Ben having his first kiss, Ben never being home. November was a time for me when I learned to be a little less selfish and I learned that I can't always be the center of attention in my family :/ Dylann entered into my life again, in a negative way of course. But I once again started to realize how many people I am lucky to have in my life. November is when I started to actually count my blessings. And December. Starting on Wednesday. We'll see what that turns into. But looking at my year this way, nothing seems that bad. But some of it was. But between Mitchell, Cambry, Triton, Taya, and Eric, I've survived making it through everything with a smile on my face. I love you all so much. I'm extremely thankful for everyone that has let me cry on their shoulder, who has offered me comfort, and those who have been my friend through it all. I'm also grateful for those who make me cry and doubt myself, because in the end you've forced me to learn more about myself. Thank you for allowing that opportunity to arise in my life.
And now now the year following  (according to my tarot cards)
November: Harmony
December: Lose support
January: Spiritual growth
February: Study
March: Dreams
April: Surrender and release
May: Ideas and inspiration
June: Blessings (although, this card was upside down.)
July: Celebration
August: Freedom
September: Lost new love
October: Soulmate
Bring on the new year :)

If you have thank you cards in your house, it's because you aren't grateful enough.