More than anyone else could ever know..

Starvation is exactly what I needed. I didn't want to go, but now that it's over, I'm so overwhelmingly grateful that I went.
It was the first time that I actually got to know Tracy, and now I can officially say that she is completely amazing :) she's such an inspiration to me and she gave me some really good advice. You can just tell that her and Ryan are in love, with every action and with every movement, you could tell. And I'm going to look for something like that.
On the water at sunset, you can't help but feel inspired and it would be impossible to not feel like a poet or even an artist. It's nights like that that help me feel of god's love for me. The water, the sun, the moon, the sky. It was gorgeous. I hope I never forget that feeling. On the water, you feel so delicate and I'm sure it's the most graceful that I'll ever be in my life. When I close my eyes, I still see it, and I pray that it will always be there.
Today my best friend something that really changed my ways of thinking. So maybe I lied to you and said that it didn't, but it did.. It helped me see how strong our bond of friendship is and how that will never change or go away. We're in this together and I always will be. I'm not going to leave you under any circumstance and I'm always going to be on your side. I love you with all my heart and soul. Today helped me to fully comprehend that.
Friday night helped me realize something else. You're just a waste of my time. You're a self-righteous douche bag. You make mistakes too, stop acting like you don't. And guess what.. I have a bangin body. And I love it. I love my curves and yeah I even love the way that some of my bones stick out. Sorry if that might seem 'Unhealthy and unnatural' You're an idiot. Heavenly Father blessed me with this body and I'll take it how it is. You must be blind if you can't see, you'll miss me till the day you die.
Mitchell and Dylann helped me through it all. Thanks for being my anchors through the whole childish thing. You guys are the best. I'm eternally thankful for what you guys did for me. You were there for me even when my own sister wasn't. Maybe soon she'll remember that family is forever and that guy won't be. All I can do is pray that she doesn't get hurt again. I miss the real her. She's too good to be doing this to herself.
Mom, I love you. Everything is worth it in the end. Heavenly Father confirmed this to me. I know you're doing the best you can, and it is good enough. You'll always be my very best friend. I know you'll always be there for me to cry on your shoulder, but I want you to know that the same goes for you. I'll be your crutch-literally.. until you stop limping ;)
My mumma is so much cooler than yours. Even if she doesn't play halo like some people's crazy mom..