It's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.

I don't know why I'm so sad right now. Except that all I wish is that I had Dixon to talk to. More than just his answering machine listening to me. I'm falling apart, Dixon. And the sad part is is that I have no idea why. I shouldn't feel like this. I had a good day and nothing is going extremely wrong, but I miss you so much. I miss the way your voice sounded late at night and the way you would always comfort me through my tears. I miss the way you would talk me out of my stupid ideas and how you always made me laugh. Maybe you're right, maybe I was pushing you too hard to do something that you didn't want to. And I regret that so much. Because I just want you here with me. Come back.

I know she's going through a hard time, but aren't we all and we don't use that as an excuse to treat everyone else like they're less than them. So why are you defending her actions and giving her permission to carry on. What she needs isn't love, what she needs is a nice smack in the face from reality. I'm so sick of all this, I need to find a new ward to be in.

Yesterday I had one of the most amazing talks in my life. In a swimming pool. I don't know why, but it meant so much to me and I'm not going to forget it anytime soon. I'm glad I'm not the only creep that thinks about that.

Breaking Target with a rubber ball. "You guys where are you going? What is that? Where does it...oh my god" Dylann :)

Change from the tip jar for gas.

The kids at castle park that had a knife :| we sure told their mom ;) getting super sick on the tire swing :)

Lemons and hot sauce at del taco. "Are you gonna clean my tables?!" No, we're just going to run away and jump in the car as if someone was chasing us :)

Fun at albertsons :)

I'm so grateful for everything that I haven't screwed up