When the day seems lost from the stars, you must follow your heart

I feel like I can't do this anymore. It's this huge cycle. He lays his stress on me and I lay it on my friends. And now he won't text me back. I hope I didn't ruin everything. This isn't fair! I just need somebody to talk to about my life. Because all we talk about is his. I'm so stressed about this. About everything now. I just wish none of this would have ever happened. Why aren't you being strong? You always were before. Why are you giving up on everything? Why are you giving up your passions? You're bringing this upon yourself! "I hope you never feel this." I already have, and I made it through. I need you to handle this better. Because When you can't handle it, I can't either. This is too much. I wish I could say 'I can't be bothered with this.' But I have to because he's my best friend. I need a hug right now. I can't believe I haven't been asked to homecoming yet. And that Mitchell probably won't be able to take me. I have no idea what is going to happen. I've never had this before. And it sucks. I've always been asked. And now I haven't and it isn't a priority for him to take me because he got what he wanted. Even though he said he would. I don't know :( I've never felt so sad so many days in a row. I just want to scream and shout and tell him that he needs to be stronger than this. He can't cry every day at lunch. He can't look miserable in front of swim team. And he can't give up.

The world is so full of suffering, but is also full of overcoming it.