And I know, I've said this all before, but opposites attract.

Alright. So tonight at work, Jourdan came in. I've been waiting for the day that I would run into her or something. And then it happened. I didn't say anything to her. I looked at her and she looked at me and it felt like an eternity even though it was just a few seconds. I turned around and tried to ignore her (like the shitty associate that I am) and pretend she wasn't there, and I did a shitty job at it. Because all I wanted to do was look at her and listen to her, anything ANYTHING to get to know who she really is. Because I know she's someone that I could be friends with, but I was a dumbass and never can be now. She left and part of me was relieved, but the bigger part of me just wishes I could have gone up to her and told her in person how honestly sorry I am. But I didn't. Just another regret I'll have with her.
Today was actually a pretty bad day. Because at one point in the day, my best friend brought me flowers :)) (that's obviously not the bad part) so I stepped outside to talk to him, and when I did everyone was like  'Awh that's so cute' Then Sarah was like 'No that's not cute, we hate him!' Of course she didn't tell this to me to my face and I had to hear it from another source, but SERIOUSLY??? Really? You have to be that petty? She lets her jealousy control her so much and it restricts our friendship in so many ways. I just have to keep thinking that it doesn't matter. Fuck them, I'll be out soon. As long as I'm happy. I have everything I need <3 Also, I've come to absolutely adore Robin :) Her and Britney are my favorite people in cosmetology :) Because they are REAL and HONEST. And I love them. I have something super special planned for britney for christmas :)) Lets hope it goes as planned :)) saving money for christmas and birthdays is kinda hard :( I'm trying SO hard though!
So swear to god, JayLynn just texted me the worst news ever. They found a tumor in the middle of her brain. Honestly I'm terrified right now because I know how bad that can be. Why am I worried about christmas presents when there are problems like that out there? Even though I never feel god, tonight I'll pray to him for her and hope that everything is ok.
Good lord, it's a soap opera today. I just want to cuddle with my puppy.