And so I tell myself that I'll be strong.

Alright, so I lied. Pictures tomorrow. I forgot that today was an eight hour day at school and that I had a group meeting after too :/ thus, no time to edit and post pictures. But just a few highlights of my day :) well, I went to the library today to drop off some books and on the way there, absolutely nothing was on the radio. So I went to backup, my eminem cd. And I decided to be a little daring today so I used the driveup drop off thing (which is actually silly. every time I try to use it, I never get close enough and have to get out of my car to use it anyways, but I tried anyways) So I pull up to the box, and unroll my window to attempt to put my books in. And I wasn't blasting my music or anything, I was using the appropriate musical level to give eminem his justice. Picture this, Adri listening to her music, windows down, struggling to put her books away, and little kids everywhere (was there an event or something??) and OF COURSE, with the crappy luck I have, right as I'm putting my books away eminem decides that singing about loving everyone and rainbows and daisies aren't appropriate at the moment. "Thats the devil in my ear i been sober a fuckin year And that fucker still talks to me he is all i can fuckin hear" REALLY? Right as little kids walk by and my window is down, that's when eminem decided to let loose threeeeee f words. Bah. Grandmothers everywhere were glaring at me :(
Funny story, the other day in communications a kid was talking about how cell phones used to have the battery problem where they would just catch on fire and like blow up. Innocently, my teacher asked, "So it would explode in his pants??" I laughed. Unfortunately only one other person did too. It's funny though, am I right?
K, beddy boo time.

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new

Ok, talk now, pictures later :) I absolutely promise :)
Alright, so a lot lot LOT has happened the last couple of weeks. It hasn't been the best though. Ben moved to Idaho last week. And I've been devastated. I honestly didn't think I would be. On the Sunday that he moved out, I was GRUMPY. I wanted to get in the shower and then Ben got in and I was mad. And then he just kept getting in the way and I couldn't do my hair and stuff and I was upset. So I just started yelling that I couldn't wait for him to leave. But then two minutes later when it came down to him actually leaving, I started crying so hard. And then my mom was crying and then even my dad cried. And it was awful. But for the first week he moved, my mom went too so that she could teach him how to do some stuff and that made it even HARDER. Because then not only was I missing my brother, but I was missing my mom! And I know I should be over it by now because this is his second week not being here, but yesterday I literally cried like seven times because I miss my brother so much. I go to school for five hours surrounded by people and I still just feel lonely. And it used to be that home was the one place I was never lonely because I was lucky enough to have my best friend be here. And now he just isn't and it's really difficult for me to get used to. I used to always say that I was so happy my brother never went on a mission because I couldn't imagine two years without him here, but now he's gone for life and that's way worse. Bah, I need to just get over it and stop crying (yes, I'm crying right now too) TOO EMOTIONAL.
Anyways, well in school I'm learning so much. I've had everything waxed and we've started facials and back facials. And I actually really love esthetics, but I don't get on too well with the girls. The clogger bugs me and she isn't my biggest fan, so her and Tessie clicked and I'm just like '.....' It's awful. But last week when Jessica was in disney world, it was great. We had a nice even number, and it was just good. But now she's back and she really just looks down on me like I'm a bug or something. I think it's stupid.
Wellllll, other than that I guess there really isn't that much to tell. Yesterday me and Eric went downtown and took pictures and stuff and it was really fun :) but he's a loser because he's watch me take a picture then come take the EXACT SAME ONE. That is just RUDE ;)
Now time to edit pictures and off to school :)

I'm too busy to blog lately :( will post HUGE post tomorrow :) pictures included :) night lovelies xxxx

Ben: "Man, there's a lot of black people on tv these days" Racism at its finest

It's bad enough when people take kissing pictures. But taking them in public? Go die.

And if someone tries to limit you, you've gotta let them go now

Day one- (surprisingly on time too) morning

Roosters remind me of morning :)

Today was nothing special. I went to the doctors this morning (super early and that was a nightmare) and found out I have allergies. No surprises there. Then I went to school and had my eyebrows designed and they look very good :) very clean :) during my skin analysis I was declared as 'little miss perfect skin' and that made me smile, but the they found an open comedone in my nose. IN my nose. Ok so explaining. And open comedone are the zits on your face that look like holes and when you squeeze them a really long snake of 'pus' (it's not really pus, it's old oil, but everyone calls it pus sooo) comes out. And I had one on the inside of me septum! You know how long I've had that there? Over a YEAR. I remember one of the huge reasons I wanted to pierce my septum was because I thought it would hide 'that hole thing' but it didn't because my septum was pierced higher of course. ANYWAYS, so this old oil has been just festering in this comedone for over a year, but my teacher gets out her q tips and just goes at it. Eight minutes later, an entire inch comes out! Now, the extraction part of this wasn't too painful, there was a lot of pressure on my nose and it pinched slightly, but mostly made my eyes water. I thought it was cake. Until after! Now it hurts like a beezy. It's like I just pierced it twenty times and is just super sore and it's swollen and it hurts now. But I'm happy that it's gone :) sadly, that was the most exciting part of my day.

So I've been reading this thing about heart transplants and such and I found the most interesting thing. There was a sixty year old man that received the heart of a sixteen year old girl. Afterward he said this 'I'm not the same you know. I think like her. I look at flowers longer, and I know off the top of my head poems that I never read, and sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to fall in love' I thought this was so amazing because I think that in a way it has the potential of showing that we really do have the ability to think with our hearts as well as our brains. We carry so much of our emotions and thoughts in our hearts even if we don't realize it. The heart is just as powerful as the brain is, even if we don't pay that much attention to it.

There's nothing more painful than failing at love.

Alright, so lets catch up on life, shall we?
So Kylie's wedding was not too long ago. Maybe. I'm not sure actually. I think it was two weeks ago now? Probably. But this wedding is proof that me and my brother can ruin any 'lovely' moment that there is supposed to be in life. First of all I see my friend Maria there, so I call her over to talk to (Sidenote: me and Maria were quite close for a moment, but then she switched to morning so we don't see each other very often anymore) and I was surprised that she was there alone so of course I ask her where devyn is. "we broke up... a month ago" I felt HORRIBLE! They were together for like three years! But she told me that JayLynn just found out today too and they've been in the morning together all semester implying that she should have known, but was too self absorbed to find out. ANYWAYS, so when me and Ben went through the line (which is a stupid ceremony that I will refuse to do) Kylie tells me she's excited for 'tonight' Ben thinks she means sex because seriously what else could 'tonight' mean?? But when he made a raunchy comment/sound or whatever she seemed pissed. But wait, there's more ruining to be done, and this is worst of all. She had a photo booth there, the kind where you close the curtain and it takes pictures you know? For some reason me and Ben decide to flip the camera off. Full fledged middle fingers up. And this wouldn't be so bad except that one of the copies goes to the bride and groom!!! :0 HOW EMBARRASSING! This was a TEMPLE marriage and we decide to make a vulgar hand gesture :| as least we didn't moon it, I suppose.
Then there's school. Idk about school. Jessica bothers me, Tessie is ok, but Jessica really bugs me. She's a clogger and every time there's music on she stomps her feet and claps her hands. HOW UNNECESSARY IS THAT. Quite. But I can't just be like 'Yo, sister, this isn't a dance class, stfu or I'll cut you' So I try to deal with it, refraining from punching her in the balls. Today she sent me over the top though, we were waxing her arms and she starts crying. Because she's so stressed because she's going to disney world tomorrow. Who the hell cries because they're going to disney world. I wanted to slap her for being so ignorant or whatever. But so yeah, waxing. This week I've had so much hair ripped out of my body. Bah. Under arms, Bikini (which is a waste of time, just give me a Brazilian bro...), full legs, arms, tomorrow we're doing face, imagine any hair on your body and we've gotten rid of it this week. Which was kind of a funny story. I've had my legs waxed before and that was one huge painful nightmare, so I was extremely nervous to start waxing everything. And it reminded me of my eighteenth birthday when me and Kira and Robin had that piercing party and Robin was so nervous that she peed like fifty times. Well, nervous Adri at her best, I peed like 9827568258254867 times. But it wasn't so bad. I haven't screamed or sworn once (To fit in, I'm letting them all believe I'm a good Mormon girl) and even when they lift or don't pull taut, I only wince slightly and tell them it's ok. I love waxing though. LOVE it. I'm super good at bikini, so come at me ladies. I make you look very very nice.
Over memorial weekend I went boating and it was a lot of fun :) Ben and Krystal went up saturday and camped till monday, but me and Eric just went up sunday and even though it was FREEZING water, I still jumped in :) first one in the water this season. Tubing was a questionable experience though. I went with this girl justine and we told Ben to go a little slower because we didn't want to get all wet all over again. So what does he do? He zig zags at full speed. Justine takes up the WHOLE tube so I'm left with my legs just slapping the water over and over again (believe me, it's super painful. I bruised instantaneously) But Ben is really bad about socializing when he's with his girlfriend, he ignores the whole group just for her. Which SUCKS because only three people were camping! So poor Isaac is a complete third wheel and even told me and Eric he felt like one! After dinner Ben and Krystal decide to 'go to the bathroom' for an hour and a half! And me and Eric can't just leave him there! So being the good people we are, we become interested in his knife collection and in his stories and all that. And sometimes it was genuinely interesting, but we just did our best to make sure HE felt special. I'm pretty sure he had no idea what my name even was, but I can tell you his whole life story and that's important when you talk to people. To know about THEM and not always direct the conversation to you. Isaac was pretty cool though super super talented at what seemed like everything and it was nice to talk to him :) And I know Eric liked him and so we did what we thought was our duty :) And that was that :) Soooo that's my life :)
Hopefully june will be a better blogging and photography month :)