Random heart to heart with Spencer Pond. I'm SO grateful for him. He's an amazing example.
Moreeee late maybe ;)

As long as you're with me, baby you'll be alright.

I certainly have a lot of catching up to do. Lets start on thursday. So on Thursday we had to do our midterm tests which are basically our finals for barbering because we're switching to cosmetology now. So on wednesday night I was supposed to study really hard for my theory test, but instead I read through the review once and went to bake cookies with Andy. Good plan, I know. So of course I was slightly worried for my test! But no worries, somehow I managed to only miss three. Out of a hundred. I'M A GENIUS. Then I had to do a practical test and we could either do a taper or a shave, and since I hadn't officially learned a taper I chose to do a shave. After A LOT of begging, pleading, and whining I got Andy to come in to be my model. Poor kid must have been nervous seeing my straight razor shaking in my hand as I prepared to perform my first stroke. He was a good sport though and really helped me calm down. I'm extremely grateful to him for that :) I got 94 on my shave which is still an A, but I wish I could have done better. Thursday night I closed and thank the Lord, Sara Tovar was there and that made me very happy because I hadn't seen her in so long and she's my work best friend :) We're pretty good at singing ;) 'My only concern is the next time ima get me someeee!' NOPE! ;) We have a pair of panties right now that says 'Ice cream and boys' what the random? So we tried to see a connection between the two... 'Licking' I laughed so hard. Sara is my favorite ever :)
So on Friday Andy convinced me to go to institute with him and Sarah Seastrand and it was a really good devotional and everything, but I was annoyed. Because I'm so insecure :( I know it's stupid to worry that Andy would leave me for Sarah because I KNOW he wouldn't do that, but I do know that she thinks he's good looking and she does want to get married and everything. The whole Robin Eric thing screwed me up. I worry about things I know I shouldn't. Because honestly Andy is a better guy than that and Sarah is a better friend than that. So why am I still worried?! Because I'm stupid. And I let it bother me all day. Me and Andy went on a date that night and we saw Dream House and I really liked it, but it almost sounded like I was THE ONLY ONE IN THE WHOLE THEATER that did! I thought it was good :) Whatever! :) Then after the movie I was sad again and I really just didn't know why :( I feel bad that Andy had to put up with my weird weirdness :(
Yesterday was mostly good. Work was actually really fun because I got to work with Sara again :) And I FINALLY have someone that doesn't like Tan! Because Sara was working up at the register and Tan sprayed her gorgeous perfume and no one really likes that smell and Tan wouldn't just admit that she sprayed her. And it was stupid, but everyone knows the best revenge is Rapture.... ;) we couldn't stop using british accents though :| 'Nigga say what' Just imagine it with an accent and you'll see why it's funny ;) STICK SHIFT! On my way home from work I saw Dylann and he flipped me off and I found this comical. Because that was high school... And I flip everyone off for everything so it has no meaning. Especially because the few times Andy has flipped me off, I've found him extremely attractive. Either way, I laughed the rest of the way home. Then I went to a wedding. I honestly have no idea which twin was even getting married, but I was there. And I had a good time :) even though it was outside so it was FREEZING! It was a nice wedding, but not like how I want mine to be. I hope Amber and Terrance are next to get married :) :) :) I went to Drake's house after and we all went to a coffee shop and it was really cool. Because it wasn't starbucks or anything stupid, it was the kind where people perform and it was fun. Drake brought his guitar and Mike sang an acoustic version of keep holding on and it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard. It was sad to watch him though. I remember when he used to sing about bitches and hoes. Not anymore though. Which isn't always so bad ;) on the way home he fell asleep even though it wasn't that late at all, so I went home a little earlier than I thought I would. When I got home I was just feeling really sad and looking back I don't know why. The last two days I've felt sad for no reason. I hope it stops soon.

Wedding flowers <3

Just a kiss on the lips in the moonlight

School was way fun today :) I went to institute which was pretty awkward because I got hit on by a lot of guys and had no desire to reciprocate flirtations. Free pancakes though :))
Hair hair hair. Britney gave me a facial and it was amazing :) I've forgotten to blog this so many times, but a couple of days ago she was telling me about how she's bisexual and how I'm her type. Look out world, girls think I'm hott too. ;)
I baked cookies with Andy tonight and it was super fun :) I was wearing a utes shirt and he FORCED me to wear a byu shirt! ;) Silly kid, but whatever floats his boat :) His sister emily stole like TWENTY MILLION cookies. There was a lot of kicking, pushing, and sneaking involved with this process :)) She's slightly crazy ;) His mom and dad make me so happy :) 'You don't flirt?? Yeah, sure...' Even his dad is aware of my flirtations process ;) So I've never really been kissed in the rain until tonight. It's the weirdest feeling to feel so warm on the inside but to know that your cold on the outside. It was a really good feeling :) oh yeah, I forgot. My mom had to give me the "marriage talk" today. Kind of like the sex talk, but different. 'You're too young, you should wait' Yes mom, thank you :) After about a month of dating, me and Andy have decided to marry. PRINT THE ANNOUNCEMENTS EVERYONE. ;) Juuuuust kidding, me and princess aren't even going out yet ;)

Steve jobs died before we could get married #crying

You're only the best I ever had

Today I cut Andrew's hair and I was TRIPPIN BALLS. I've never been so nervous to do hair in my life! And I don't even know why! As soon as he told me he was there I was shaking and nervous and it was weird! I don't know why, but Andy really does make me nervous sometimes! I was super happy to see him though :)) I start to miss him REALLY fast. It's weird. I don't know, I'm cluttered right now.
Then work.

Started not to give a fuck and not to fear the consequence

Today has been this entirely emotional confusing day and I'm extremely drained. I always hate losing any kinds of friends. I hate saying goodbye to even the slightest of people. And today's been like that I feel. Saying goodbye to some unimportant people and some really important people. It's hard, but I know it will still be ok, just different. The worst is when you don't even know why you have to say goodbye. Nik texted me again and told me how Jourdan is going through a lot and that I need to stop talking to him and her. ..I haven't talked to either of them in two weeks.. I honestly have no clue what he's talking about and I know I'm stupid, but yeah, it hurts. I FEEL DUMB EVEN SAYING THAT. But honestly, he was a really good friend and I don't know what even happened. I hate that I won't be able to just text him on a whim when I think about him. Because no I don't want to hook up with him, but I don't want him to hate me. I need to stop dwelling on it. I'm stupid for ever getting involved with that drama.
JayLynn cut her hair today and for about 3.5 seconds I considered cutting mine, but lets not get stupid! I've been growing it out for so long and I like it the way it is :) Then Andy came and saw me and everyone approved of him and think he's super cute :)) I really like showing him off :) Tonight was weird though. I was just kinda grumpy and I was just picking fights with Andy :( not huge life changing ones, but little annoying ones, and Princess, I just really need to say I'm sorry :( I'll make up for my behavior tonight, I promise. That's my day in a very miniscule nutshell.
I wish I didn't care about everything so much

It's not too late, it's never too late.

Tonight I went on a double date with Andy and Sarah and it was super fun :) we went and saw abduction which was a really dumb movie, but I still had a really good time :) 'You two have been on the run for 22 hours straight, I'm sure you're hungry. Let me take you out for a burger and milkshake' Me and Andy at the same time 'Yummmm' :) So. Pretty much Andy beat me up and gave me a bloody nose! Well. Kinda. Somehow I wacked my nose on his shoulder or something and he was put off from me hitting him so much and he was like 'I hope you get a bloody nose!' ...Well, then I did ;)
I love that Andy FINALLY got to sit and talk with me and my parents :) I hope that they like him :)) Because I really do ;) it was fun talking to them, even if they did always take his side!
Daddy, I love you. Thank you for caring so much about me and taking care of me. You're the best :)