Oh I forgot! There was this crazy goose! And it wouldn't stop honking! And this man kept saying why but I was like piss off we're taking a picture with a bus :)

Will you take our picture? WHY? Couldn't stop laughing :) I hope they remember us for the rest of their lives :) where did the states go? But they still have the alien circle!

Even when I was little I thought too much :)

KIDPIX KIDPIX COME ON AND PLAY WITH KIDPIX!

Next time we're gonna doorbell ditch and take a picture at the same time :)

I love us :)

Talking about senior year in the same place we used to play when we were in kindergarten...

You feel what I thought I felt...

Today was AMAZING :)

Had the best time with my Bff Mitchello :)

Some of the pictures were like perfection :)

There was alot of little things today that just made my day :)

Except for history homework, but even that made me smile a little bit because of Elvis gyrating his hips :) yummmm :)

"Ima step out of this lingerie, curl in a ball with something hanes..." Drake, you're a boy. I hope you don't have any lingerie to step out of :| Love struck little child/sick piglet :)

I hope you aren't on seminary council! I love all the kids that really want to be on it. Then there's me that makes fun of it. And I get on. Take that and suck on it wenches :) Next year will be the best year of my life :) I'll have more school spirit than your mom! Eat it!

I just had an amazing design for a shirt :) I need to jot that right on down :)

I'm in love with the idea that you 'care about him so much' but you still call him colton. Everyone knows that isn't his real effing name. EVERYONE knows that. Stop pretending you care because you want in his pants. He won't be like that anymore. I put a fricken padlock on his belt buckle. And he will remain sober. For the rest of his life. And he will continue on with March madness. And I love that boy. He's gonna be the death of me. You know I love you babe ;) You make my day...

I'm done now :) ...that's what he said...

Time passes us and I still dream about you...

Today. Wow. I looked amazing... ya know ;)

There was an egg with my name on it :) and then Trevor drew himself :) and there was like this GIANT snake and I know it's just going to come out and strangle the whole family! And it ate a mouse! On easter! Like wtf?! And there was a giant river of water! And Trevor looked like a little kid! But he's a big Trevy Trev.

And Terance: I do not write like a little kid! College has just made you stuffy! And I'm glad you lost that game (I lost the game) because I'm on Dixon's side :) but I always liked it when Dixon lost because he always made the cutest little temper tantrums :) that's my love child from my teased hair days :)

OMG. I held a BABY! I might like them now. I just want a six year old :) And she'll have really long blonde hair :) and I'll teach her how to be pretty and ladylike. Maybe I should just get a doll...

Thank heavens there is no school tomorrow :) But I have homework still :/ Revelli: Sometimes I hate you! Did you get an iPad?! Lets talk about our birthday later ;)

Two hours at grandmas :| 'what? that wasn't two hours was it?!' Yes...... it was.....

I've gotta go potty. My arm itches. I want candy. Definition of a child.

i have a craving for a deep conversation!

Mitchell tomorrow :) something amazing :)

Every thought about you keeps me up all night...

Mike, I wanna be a barbie :) -What? Plastic with unidentifiable genitalia? It's the cleanest kind, sweetie ;)

Max the genius is a DOUCHE bag! Yes, I am aware it's illegal. Now help me!

Conference :) There was one that was amazing in particular...

RM :) but she was really loud and pissed trevor off :) grumpy little boy. Ben's that's what she saids were best :]

I meant that drake is just a plain and simple little WHORE! Cough sluuuuut cough!

Dixy poo, darling, I'm wearing my safari animals... do you remember them sweetie? You came and saw me that day. And sang halo. I miss that :) I listened to a song that you made a 'music video' to :) next spring conference don't be in the hospital. You are NOT to make a habit of this.

Terbear does inspiring things for me. Boy, you're maaa buddy ;)

I have stuff to say, but my mind is clouded with sleep so I dunno anymore :)

I'm proud of someone special at the moment. But she has no idea that I am. She inspired me to make a change that I'll never regret. You have no idea, but I love you. and you sorta changed my life. I have so much to thank you for...

Days go by and I'm still here... I'm here.

Bubble bath buddies ;)

"I find naturally skinny girls hot, but what I'm deeply attracted to are girls that work their ass off to stay skinny and healthy..." Oh the inspiring words of my friend Mikee Poo :)

'Adriana, I know our love is new, I barely know ya. I've fallin over you. It's the way you do the things you do that make me fall in love with. Adri, are you in love with me too?' You tried sweetie :) so hard. And that's all that matters.

Me and Katie got naked and frisky with little wieners :) shave my legs, whore!

I went to a beach over spring break, what did you do?

Don't you just feel like getting wet now?!

Chugga chugga dance :)

Miley needs to get some acting lessons and that movie needs to start avoiding some cliches.

We feed stale popcorn to ducks :)

Oh and it's Drake that's the stripping whore!

Hey, Terance,

Darling, I need you right now. Like how I've never needed you before. I just can't get anything right. And I think I'm just waiting for you to come save me. Hurry. Please. Because this isn't going well. And I can't stop shaking. And I don't want to wipe my own tears because that's stupid. I want you to come here. Because you don't love me out of pity. Or pretend to I guess. I don't even know why you love me. I just know it's for the right reasons. You're the most amazing guy I've ever known. Please come home and bring Dixon. Because I hate him. I hate him so much because she was right. And I've wasted so much time. And Everything feels right when you just hold me in your arms. And nothing feels right at the moment. Because it's spinning all out of control like in my dream. And I'm going into a million pieces like how you interpreted that one day. Baby. Please come hold my hand and keep me together. Just like how we promised each other. I feel sick. And I don't know why. And there were all these things today that just added to it. And I keep doing all these mistakes. I hope my hair still grows. I don't want to open up to anyone anymore because it doesn't get you anywhere. If I ever start to trust someone they'll just get to know me and leave because my personality is jacked. Just like how she said. I don't even want this anymore because it's getting too personal and I don't like the thought of everyone reading all this. Because they ask questions that I'm not ready to answer. Because the answers hurt me. And that's all that I've felt the last while. I can't do this anymore. And you're the only thing that stops me sometimes. I want to go back to the simple days when we all knew what we wanted and had what felt right. But now when things feel right it doesn't even mean anything anymore because they're just going to come crashing down. All I want to do is scream profanity at the top of my lungs and maybe hurt something. Because things aren't the same. Everything is changing and going different. But I'm not ready for that. I can't accept myself anymore. And I don't want to see all this stuff around us. That the world is getting to us. And killing us. Terance, this is just too much for me. I should have come to california. Just left without telling a soul. And we could have stayed there and formed the life that would be perfect. We could have cut off contact with everyone else because I don't even know if they matter anyways. It could have been like the way we always talked about. But it wouldn't have been. I know it wouldn't have. But how much do you wish that could just be. I'm too different for myself now. Every single second I'm just thinking about hacking off my hair and never touching makeup again because then at least one thing would be like last year. But it would be the only thing. And my mind just keeps going in circles and landing on the same point. What if you aren't who I think you are? Because that has happened to me way too many times before. What if you don't really love me because I've trusted you too much and opened up to you with all this stuff and now you just feel bad for me? What if you just think I'm pretty? Or that this is all just a joke that I'm not clued in about? Sometimes I wonder if I'm in a coma and this is all just a dream. But why would I dream myself into something like this? Why wouldn't I have made myself a princess? I need to start over. Redo. Because I don't even understand myself anymore or why I do the things I do. I don't know me. Maybe that's my first mistake. Because this really is all my fault. But I can't face getting to know me because I'm too scared that I won't like her. I probably wouldn't. Or maybe I would. Out of pity though because everything is so jacked up. I'm done.

Mom, don't even bother asking about this because I'm not going to explain it to anyone ever again.