Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard.

Best friends for almost four years and it ends with him saying he hates me. Which is fine I guess. It hurts though. It hurts a lot more than I ever expected it to.
The hardest part is knowing that I put my entire heart and soul into the relationship. I gave it everything I had. I gave him everything I had. But it hardly mattered, it wasn't enough. I could never treat him the way he started treating me and that scares me, that I wouldn't say those things, but he would. It just shows even more of the inequality in that 'friendship' and I guess that's something that I should have run from anyways. It was a ticking time bomb, just a matter of time. He says it's only to me that he's rude. I don't understand why though. I helped him through all of his trials, sometimes I was the only one there at all. You think that would make him grateful for me, but he isn't. He says I was a waste of time, but at least I helped him, what did he do for me? What makes him such a prize?
I just don't know where he went. He was my best friend. He had a heart of gold and never tried to hurt anyone. He supported me and always helped me to smile. But not anymore. Now that he goes to church he is too good for me. He isn't nice anymore. He isn't the boy that I knew. And it all happened so fast. We were happy and then we weren't. I wonder if all love happens like that though; just a complete 360, or do they slowly fade out? I hope I never find out.