If tumblr wasn't so slow life would be perfect!
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Hot like Mexico.

Today was a great day.
Mr curtis caught me in the mid-act of cheating. ULTIMATE fail. But I turned it into love instead. ;)
Erik is a jackass. 'Where can I find a decent woman?' You never say that in front of a woman ya idiot..
Deck the halls is going to be so cute :) me and mitchell took a picture with the nutcracker!
Cleaning the huntsman center was amazing. I met pablo's friends and they supplied us with food :) me and mitchell spent almost the entire time avoiding boss man and plotting ways to steal dipping dots. In the end, I shoved a sharpie in it and broke the bag. It then became a blur of me and mitchell stuffing handfuls in our mouths and throwing them around like confetti :) baby: 'Don't you know that's a crime?!'
Then there's the bird. We like to keep a close eye on the bird. 'SHE'S RUNNING!!!!' She is just too easy. That's why I absolutely love the bird.
Dear you, text me. Want me. Love, me.

Hot and dangerous.

Me and Kira had a really good talk last night. She's one of the first people that has understood what I'm talking about. She gave me some amazing advice. And I was crying while we were talking, but I'm taking the first steps. I love you Kira. I missed you so much today in child care.
Once again me and my coloring book had an amazing time together. I love him. All my future coloring books are named Herb.
Kaitlin made my day :) 'Can I borrow your homecoming dress for the ke$ha concert' :) :)
I hope that everything with Lundon works out. She deserves so much more than what she has. She's so amazing. My first cosmetology friend. And now look where I am. Kercee looked amazing today :) I want the makeup that she got in vegas. Dearrr lord I want it.
The victoria secret fashion show was amazingggg :) :) :) I just want to grow up and wear wings. Next year for halloween I'm dressing up as a victoria secret model. ...Mumma said she would make me wings..
'Lisa may threatened to killed me!!!' 'With a name like Lisa may no she didn't...'
I skipped the swim meet because I just didn't feel like going. I hope mitchell did amazing!
I miss Cambry! I haven't seen her in forever. But I liked her picture in her bra in the woods. I want to do it because she looked so free :) maybe when I get my bright blue bra ;)
My dad: 'you just want a pink car so only you and mom can drive it huh?' :) and to be like barbie... duh ;)
I love walmart because no matter what I get checked out :)
So I'm at the drinking fountain. Then the people next to me just talk to me. 'Hey sexy! You looked pretty sexy in your swim suit yesterday' Yehh, I know I did. But you're a sketch, so I'll just pretend that I can't hear you ;)
Mitchell went to gateway yesterday and saw my picture :) I like that he was so proud of me :) I love being able to say that I'm a legit model.
Mitchell and pablo :) :) :)
'I wanna wrap you up in my love forever...' 'are you drunk' 'NO! I'm listening to Ke$ha!!!!'
Me and Mitchell love justin bieber. Just slightly ;) I like that even the cottonwood girls from the chiron showcase knew we were best friends. Cheyenne doesn't like me. And you know it's just because Rachel doesn't like me. And you know that's just because I got Eric. Sorry I'm just such a winner... ;)
I'm just in an amazing mood :)
Terbear, thank you for always being in my life. You're amazing. I love you.
'A slugbug is more girly than a tt!' 'You're just saying that to defend your boyfriend!' stfu mumma :)
I officially announce that this blog was too random for even my liking. Suck it.
xxxxxx

I knew I loved you before I met you.

Believe in Love.

Oooh today.
It can be summed up with my coloring book. Oh me and my coloring book.
'Cows are black!' Kercee: 'Are you sure about that?..' :)
Water aerobics. Yehh that's no big deal. Me and mitchell just ran through the halls wet and half naked. Whatev. A few guys whistled. Old Tracker guy: 'We don't see that many half naked people running the halls anymore. Maybe we wanna see more' SKETCH! Yehh no biggie, my body makes em whistle ;)
So then I go to history. And people start asking me questions about things. And I cry. Of course. Then Erik asks me if I wanna know a secret. I'm thinking he'll tell me something inspiring about his experience with god or something. No, it's just that he likes Abby smith. I don't give a shit if you like her Erik, I'm freaking crying over here...
And I knew not to wait for Mitchell after school. But I'm a tool bag. And I had forgotten. So then I waited anyways :|
me and my coloring book hung out after school.
Then we're gunna watch the victoria secret fashion show tonight. Just me and my coloring book.
This is the life..

Rescue me.

So I go to the eye doctors and a complete stranger decided to gossip about me to her daughter. 'That dress is way too short!' No, bitch, my legs are just too long.
I'm wearing Triton's shirt because it was a bad day and it brings me a small amount of comfort. Like he's still with me. I needed him so much today.
I'm sick of always feeling sad because of Rachel. But I always will.
It hasn't been a very good day.
It was nice relating to Tina. And we have a lot more in common than she even knows. She deserves better than Abby.
Seminary council decorated the foyer without me. Thanks for the texts guys. Fuck this. I'm done. I was never good enough anyways.
'If I got in a car accident would you come to see me and bring me soup?' And then I started crying.
Just notice me.

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friends betrayed you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it's time. Don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone's day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it's full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and fucking live. And one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets.

Then you came and set this heart free.

The bird is taking flight.
Yesterday I skipped my seminary council meeting. And not one single text came asking me where I was. I'm not even sure that they noticed I wasn't there. I'll skip next week too I decided. I used to defend seminary council. When someone would say 'they shouldn't be on council' I would tell them they should be because it's gods will. Then I realized that they don't do the same for me. Why should I do it for them then? To be honest, Kristin is a hypocritical judgmental bitch just like everyone says. Austin isn't always appropriate and Nick can come off like an arrogant douche. And they are all the most cliquish people I've ever met. So yeah, it's almost third term and I've decided to give up. Not because of my 'lifestyle' or even because of the judgments I get. But because we aren't even friends. So I don't understand why to keep trying with them. No thanks. I think they should just get rid of seminary council all together it's such an awful program.
Me and Kira taught preschool together :) and that was fun :) Preston and Kaya are officially my favorite.
Yesterday in the preschool we talked about serious things. And I honestly felt close to all of them. Even Tina. In a way I feel sad for Tina because it doesn't seem like she has a real honest to goodness best friend. And that makes me want to be there for her more. Ashley honestly does make me feel safe and good about myself. And I'm never going to forget sitting in the preschool, cutting out paper snowflakes, and talking about love. I'm grateful for my teaching group. Ms. Rockwell really did know what she was doing when she put us together.
Trevor Beesley isn't a virgin. And I am :) Does everyone remember him telling me that Eric will only cause me trouble? He was implying that he would get me into drugs and sex. Well guess what didn't happen to me? And look what did happen to him :) nobody has faith in me, but myself. I am a good person. I don't know what Gabbie implied when she asked about my 'lifestyle' because I've never smoked, I've never drank, and I am a virgin. Yehh I dress immodestly and have been known to swear, but do you know how many times I've reached out to others when they needed someone? Yeah me and Mitchell make fun of other people and laugh loudly at their imperfections but when it comes down to it, we're the two that are most likely to put an arm around you if we see you crying. In the end, we'll be there for you.
You know something sad? I've found myself confiding a lot in Jordan and Nik and Ashley in english. Because I feel like they don't judge me. They find my mishaps funny and actually offer real advice. I know I'm a freak, but it's nice talking to people that don't think less of me afterwards.
Yesterday I did a perm in thirty minutes. Then another with smaller rods in forty five minutes. I'm getting good :) Thank you cosmetology. You're my release. I consider Megan, Kercee, and Lundon some of my best friends. I hope we all go far in life.