I'll be just fine pretending I'm not

Sue is my hero.

Thank the Lord for the amazing friends that I have.

Off to starvation.

I guess I'll do a huge post about California later :)

Xoxo, j.

Don't believe what they say about happiness because nothing feels better than crying these days

I just read about a dream that seriously made me cry. Just hearing about it. I think that it said everything about our friendship. The most vivid dream I ever had was about you too.

I never posted it even though I always meant to..

It was when I was at girls camp. And in my dream I was sitting around the campfire talking to everybody. And all those little sparks were flying all around me, but I wasn't scared at all. But one of them landed on my head and caught my hair on fire, but only half of it. I blacked out and then the next thing I knew I was at the doctors. And he told me that there was too much scarring for my hair to ever grow back. And I couldn't stop crying because I knew that everyones favorite thing about me was my hair. But, Mitchell, when you came into the room and saw me crying you just came and sat with me and held me hand. Then I asked you if I was still pretty and you answered by telling me that I wasn't, I was still beautiful. That made me cry even more, but because it showed what an amazing friend you are. And when I woke up, I really was crying.

I love you so much, Mitchell. You're the most amazing guy in the entire world.

I can't wait to come back just to see you again.

I just don't know who I am without you

Why am I doing this?

I can't do this.

I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid.

I don't think I'll make it.

I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid.

This isn't what I signed up for.

I should not have put myself in this situation.

I can not do this.

I'm freaking my freak and nobody is even here.

'Baby please don't go to california..'

Sweetheart, you're making this so much harder for me.

What if he gets phone privileges when I don't have service? What if I'm the one who never answers the phone this time?

Dixon, please don't hate me. I love you with all my heart. I want to stay for you.

What if everything has changed when I get back?

I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid.

I just want to stay here and tell my secret :(

Please pray for me.

I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid.

Can I tell you a secret?

I want to wear your sweatshirt to bed so I can smell you all night, watch scary movies with you so I have an excuse to grab your arm, talk on the phone until sunrise so we can say stupid sleep deprived things together, sneak out at night to look at the stars together, play your favorite video games, make you watch my favorite chick flicks, share a kiss in the rain so that when the romance starts to make me cry you can't tell, go on pointless walks with you, laugh my real laugh until I can't breathe anymore, hold your hand so long that mine feels weird when it isn't intertwined with yours, go to all the football games with you, slow dance with you at my senior prom, write our names in the sand together, smile at all the texts you send me, talk about life. I want to fall hopelessly in love with you.

Again.

And I know it's confusing, but nothing worth losing..

Shopping with Zak and Zacho :)

The man at pacsun that remembered my name hardcore..

Having an amazing phone conversation with zakary for a couple of hours :)

Grateful for Dylann and Mitchell.

'Adri, are you thirsty?' Yesss :)

Lets go read tampon box facts :)

Step brothers

'They called me anal girl... because I was so strict'

"Are they together? They want to be..."

Eisenhowers old librarian... without a bra on :|

Lifegaurd that looked like Eric :)

Trying to hide from Dylann in the tunnel :)

"Your boobs have definitely gotten bigger since the beginning of the year" :) :) :)

'Thats a girl car!'' SHHHH!

THROW THE BREAD!

Much fun :)

But I aint complaining, we all wanna be famous

Lets jump at the same time :) one..two..three... lol jayy kayy I can't do it :)

You guys didn't bring food?! You were being serious?!

Creepy lady at the fence :) little boy head that just POPS up :)

No shoes. No shirt.

SHORTS?!

White people put this on a table and eat off of it..

TURN ON THE LIGHTS TURN ON THE LIGHTS! I'm calling my mom! ...calm down!

Fricken Rosie.

Asians are horrible to watch movie with!

Lets go... swim again :)

Xyra tells :/

Good night :) miss cambry :)

I need you more than you need you

So there I am peacefully sleeping away the morning :) BUUUZZZZ. So I'm like, oh a text, I'll read it later because I'm mothertrucking tired. BUUUUZZZ. It's not a text :|

'Hullo'

'Adri... blah blah sniffle sniffle cry cry blubber blubber snifffle!'

"..Uhhuh...yeh...mmmhmmm...oh wow..'

After ten excruciating minutes of wishing I could continue my sleeping pattern...

'Hi, I'm Adri. I pms hardcore when my bestfriend Drake calls me for advice.'

'Screw you, Drake' :)

Oh goodness I love my life :)

I wanna work at the swap-meat!